I am the I AM’s

Dear God,

If there is something more I am to do or think or say, reveal this to me. Show me your will for my life.

I love you, Lord. It’s as if my soul is hungry for you. As if I have been deprived because of my own questioning of if the food I have always eaten was actually what was keeping me alive.

Truth is not relative. Truth is absolute.

You are truth. You are absolute.

Thank you for my weakness. It has brought me to a level of dependency I did not think I would ever experience.

My faith is in You. You alone. I have no hope without You. You are the Living God. I am beginning to understand how much I do not understand.

You did more than create. You are the CREATOR. Everything I see, You made. This overwhelms my brain. I can not comprehend You and Your ways.

It is as if my eyes have been truly uncovered. My eyes actually see the things you have made.

How do I deserve to even come into Your Presence with an encounter of a tree?

Truly, I do not know. I am undeserving of Your Love. The only things I know is I am fully Yours. You created me, my mind, my free will. I am Yours whether I choose You or not.

What makes me known by You is if I choose to live my life on this earth by Your will. To know that Jesus is the Son of God who came to earth to save my life from Hell.

Lord, Your love for me is something I cannot comprehend. To the best of my ability, I have gathered that You actually care for me so much. How do I deserve the almighty to hear my call when I cry out in doubt?

How do I deserve to see a shooting star as I pray for guidance like Mary and Joseph?

I deserve nothing on my own. You made a way for me to have You see me.

I am beyond humbled by your ever-presence to see me along with all the other hurt in the world.

I felt so strong a few weeks ago. I now feel almost back to square one.

I know that this is not true. I have obeyed you.

You are taking me on the journey of a life fully for You. I know this. See where I am.

My life by age 7 was defiled against my own will. My earthly father betrayed me. You protected me against things I do not know, which is my protection speaking for itself.

My life changed 6 years ago when I gave up my will, my decisions, my goals.

I handed You my life and said do with it what You may. My biggest desire was to be married. I wanted this more that You. I began the long journey of surrender.

One year ago (2018), I gave you my last bit of control.

You revealed the world to me. Selfless perspective, healing to my body, direct prayers from my heart were answered.

Here I am right now. Yo see me and I am asking you now what? I have surrendered my entire life to You. What is it that You want from me now, my Lord.

Examine my ways, my thoughts. Find if there is any way in me that needs to be changed.

Renew my strength in You, Holy one.

May you speak directions to me, so I may know which way I should go.

May Your word renew what was shaken. I may have stumbled but I have not fallen.

You are truth. You are creator.

Lead me in confidence in this new thing You are doing. I trust in the Lord beyond my feelings. Truth beyond my feelings.

I choose to serve the One who made me. Open my eyes to Your will. Strengthen my mind. Reveal to me what I should now.

You are God. My belief in You does not create You. You are the I AM and I am the I AMs.

Protect my mind. Guide me in the way I should go. Open my eyes to Your world with my heart and not my head.

Fulfill everything You need from me.

My view of You is very different than just a few weeks ago. I see Your greatness. Be with me and deliver me like the Israelites. Rebuild my confidence with my very weakness.

You are beyond my words. Speak to me through Your word. Draw near to me. Strengthen me with Your power.

Dispose of my questioning of “if.”

My God, lead me. You ask, “who will go?” I say “Lord, I will go, send me.”

In this life you will have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.